the most intense day of my life!

Barrett made his appearance :) tj and i are so blessed and in love with our little man!

on tuesday june 7, i woke up thinking i had peed the bed. it just kept coming so my genius self finally figured out my water had broken. so i called tj home from work... while i was waiting for him to show up, i showered and got my things together thinking no more water was going to come out. WRONG. it just keeps coming and coming. all the way to the hospital. we got to ogden regional around 830 am and i got checked in and set up in my room. at about 9 i got an IV and fluids and pitocin going. i had hoped to have a natural birth but because i wasn't contracted and because of risk of infection, we had to get things going with pitocin. i was a tough banana for about 8 hours. then i just couldn't do it anymore. i got an epidural at about 415 pm. relief.  i felt so much better. i had gotten a shot of fentanyl earlier but it didn't do anything for my pain and only made me really sleepy. after the epidural, i had still not progressed much. i think i was at a 4 or 5 but that was it. i was so out of it. i wasn't really talking to anyone and still can't remember a lot of what happened. i was in this weird "zone" i don't even know how to explain it. i continued to labor and still didn't make much progress. i was feeling discouraged and feared that i was going to have to have a c-section. i threw up several times and that was miserable too.... it did help me progress a little bit tho which was a blessing in disguise. at around 11 pm, dr. alejo came in to see how i was doing. i broke down in tears from exhaustion and fear. he asked what i wanted to do because Barrett's heart rate was decelerating with my contractions. he said i had been at this for a long time and if i wanted a c-section he would do it. he also said we could infuse fluid to make him more comfortable which would hopefully help him. i was so tired but i said i wanted to continue. so that's what we did. he was bouncing back and forth between me and another girl at mckay dee so he came back a little later (i think 3 or 4 am ish) and checked and i was like a 7. so he said he was going to go home and rest because he had been up all day and night. at a little after 4 am, i was feeling incredible amounts of pressure so the nurse checked me and i was complete! she did some practice pushes with me to see if she should call alejo back and she decided she should. she kept pushing with me for a while and said alejo was on his way. then she said to stop pushing haha. guess he was closer than the doc was :) when alejo got there, he said let's see how she does when pushing and instantly said "ok i'll get dressed" yay! i don't remember how many pushes or how long but i know it wasn't too many because he came at 5:54 am :) they put him on my chest and i was rubbing his back and his belly and i just cried with joy. i was ecstatic. this is what i was meant to be: a mom. i was so happy :) tj was pretty happy too ;) they took him and cleaned him off and weighed and measured him. he was 7 lbs 8 oz and 20.5 inches long. come to find out, the cord was wrapped around his neck a couple times which is what slowed labor a bit because he kept spinning around in there.

anyway, he's ten days old now and he's doing really well! he eats constantly and sleeps a ton. i have to wake him up at night to feed him which is actually nice. don't worry, i'm sure it will change soon.... :)

tj and i are so thankful for all the prayers and love and support. we are so excited about this journey we have started together! it's crazy how much changes in a year.... :)

surprise!

wowza. i honestly can't believe i've made it to over 38 weeks in my pregnancy! i thought for sure i would be done by now! things are still great! my blood pressure has been on the high side but all my labs indicate i'm fine. {no preeclampsia} :) i am definitely ready to meet my baby boy tho! he is about eight pounds now which is so great [and a bit scary...] haha :)


 barrett's room is all ready for him to show up! his room is so perfect! i will have to take some more pics tho

here is our new bed! tj and his dad built it from scratch! they are so amazingly talented and i am soooo grateful for what they were able to do! i absolutely LOVE my new bed! it is soo nice to be able to get in and out of bed easier now :) {it was pretty tough when the mattress was on the floor} we saw a bed at cabela's that inspired our bed. however, we really weren't interested in paying nearly $2000 for it. fortunately, tj and his dad were able to build it for less than $500!!! tell me i'm a lucky girl! :)

blueberry at 32 weeks!

wow. i am such a failure! i can't believe i haven't posted since january! BOO! :( i can't even say i was extremely busy... i was just working my same schedule and only taking one class. hmmm... we started house hunting the end of February which was exciting! by March, we had made an offer on one in Syracuse and our offer was accepted! so, the end of March we moved in! we love love love our new wonderful house! it fits us perfectly! Bogey LOVES having a yard to run around and play in! and i love not having to pick up his poop hehehe :)

tj had a second knee operation the beginning of April... so far it seems to have been a better success. only time will tell... :)

i am getting pretty gigantic. i suppose that is to be expected by now. i am now up nearly 30 pounds {EEGADZOOKS!} but i don't appear that big thankfully! one advantage of being super tall.... ;) i have been loving everything blueberry! blueberry bagels, waffles, cereal, oatmeal, biscuits, ANYTHING! my favorite tho is blueberry banana shakes! yum! :)

we painted the room that will be Barrett's nursery :) the crib is set up and almost all of his clothes and cloth diapers are washed and ready! at my appointment on April 6, i was 29 weeks along and he was already nearly 4 pounds. needless to say, we will apparently be having a toddler instead of an infant lol yikes for me! i am very excited about going to the doc again tomorrow to see how big he is now :) i will try to do better at keeping ya'll updated! :)

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ahhh! last night was such a freaking blast! :) we got to see jeff dunham! we had an incredible time! i'm so thankful for our great friends eric and jill and that we were able to go down there :) tj got us really awesome seats right on the floor! on the way down there, we stopped and ate at california pizza kitchen YUM! :) then we walked across the street to the energy solutions arena and enjoyed trombone guy, guitar guy, and jeff dunham :) if you haven't seen his videos, i would really suggest looking them up! and then next time, when he's here, YOU CAN COME TOO :)

 

and here is my friend jill and me waiting for jeff dunham to come on stage :) i know it's blurry sorry :) but we had so much fun!

a little encouragement

finally! i am feeling a little bit of relief! so i am so anxious and ready to be a nurse! i just feel like i'll never get to that point and there are so many times i have been discouraged! however, not today! today, i was doing some research on other options to getting into a nursing program [one that won't cost more than a new car] where i meet the requirements. i found one!

ogden weber atc. plus, i didn't miss the application deadline! i am ecstatic! the early application deadline is february 1 and the regular deadline is march 1. so really, i can do this! i am beyond excited! even if i don't get in, i feel like i am doing what i can. remember, you have to go to the stop sign!

funny how the tables can turn

and not always in a bad way! today at work i got the pleasure of taking care of a woman who used to take care of me. not in the same way but still :) she used to be one of my bosses. i really admire her and she always had my back. i was so so so sad when she left to go work elsewhere. i always appreciated her kindness and the way she ran things. anyway, she recently had surgery and it was nice to be able to return the favor. i guess it kind of reminds us all the always be kind. because in reality, the tables can always turn.....